[ I SURE DIDNT me clawing desperately at having pcs today
the door is open! someone was very distracted.
the sight in the room is just - fei du, standing there, shoulders hunched at his ears, phone thrown on the floor. he's got his hand clutched in the bare front of his shirt, hand splayed flat on his chest - electricity crackles off of his fingers, like he was trying, he was trying -
worse than that, he's breathing ragged and staring into the distance, dissociating out of his mind, like he's three seconds from a panic attack or trying to desperately wrangle his thoughts into place or both, but his brain's awful thoughts play back a loop of those same noises, the snatched lyrics of a familiar song, the discordant notes of whatever was playing when wenzhou's announcement went through, no, work, god damn it, come on - ]
[ unfortunately, lambda isn't the most sensitive or delicate of people and she is nowhere near qualified to be a therapist to know how to approach this softly, so she does what she thinks is best.
she walks up to him and kicks (or tries to ) his hand. ]
this would probably fucking break his hand if it was at full strength. thankfully it is not. it is, however, sharp, and harsh, and startling, and he sucks in a breath, reacting out of sheer instinct to the pain.
it's good, actually. fei du hates pain, hates hurting, but in situations like these, pain is crisp and sharp and reminds him he does exist as a part of this universe. he blinks, at lambda, head whipping up to stare at her, and he just looks... like a wreck, really, startled and shaken and like a baby animal instead of a person.
just stunned? stunned enough that his thoughts very temporarily silence while he holds his hand like a dumbass. ]
You're allowed to grieve, but don't be stupid about it.
[ it's almost callous, the way she's saying it, but if his shocks aren't doing anything for him where they have before, what point is there other than to keep him lost?
she knows how much despair can drown a person, but he's still got the weekend to get through. ]
You will see him. You might hate how or why, but you'll see him soon.
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the door is open! someone was very distracted.
the sight in the room is just - fei du, standing there, shoulders hunched at his ears, phone thrown on the floor. he's got his hand clutched in the bare front of his shirt, hand splayed flat on his chest - electricity crackles off of his fingers, like he was trying, he was trying -
worse than that, he's breathing ragged and staring into the distance, dissociating out of his mind, like he's three seconds from a panic attack or trying to desperately wrangle his thoughts into place or both, but his brain's awful thoughts play back a loop of those same noises, the snatched lyrics of a familiar song, the discordant notes of whatever was playing when wenzhou's announcement went through, no, work, god damn it, come on - ]
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she walks up to him and kicks (or tries to ) his hand. ]
You're already feeling, idiot.
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this would probably fucking break his hand if it was at full strength. thankfully it is not. it is, however, sharp, and harsh, and startling, and he sucks in a breath, reacting out of sheer instinct to the pain.
it's good, actually. fei du hates pain, hates hurting, but in situations like these, pain is crisp and sharp and reminds him he does exist as a part of this universe. he blinks, at lambda, head whipping up to stare at her, and he just looks... like a wreck, really, startled and shaken and like a baby animal instead of a person.
just stunned? stunned enough that his thoughts very temporarily silence while he holds his hand like a dumbass. ]
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[ it's almost callous, the way she's saying it, but if his shocks aren't doing anything for him where they have before, what point is there other than to keep him lost?
she knows how much despair can drown a person, but he's still got the weekend to get through. ]
You will see him. You might hate how or why, but you'll see him soon.