this would probably fucking break his hand if it was at full strength. thankfully it is not. it is, however, sharp, and harsh, and startling, and he sucks in a breath, reacting out of sheer instinct to the pain.
it's good, actually. fei du hates pain, hates hurting, but in situations like these, pain is crisp and sharp and reminds him he does exist as a part of this universe. he blinks, at lambda, head whipping up to stare at her, and he just looks... like a wreck, really, startled and shaken and like a baby animal instead of a person.
just stunned? stunned enough that his thoughts very temporarily silence while he holds his hand like a dumbass. ]
You're allowed to grieve, but don't be stupid about it.
[ it's almost callous, the way she's saying it, but if his shocks aren't doing anything for him where they have before, what point is there other than to keep him lost?
she knows how much despair can drown a person, but he's still got the weekend to get through. ]
You will see him. You might hate how or why, but you'll see him soon.
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this would probably fucking break his hand if it was at full strength. thankfully it is not. it is, however, sharp, and harsh, and startling, and he sucks in a breath, reacting out of sheer instinct to the pain.
it's good, actually. fei du hates pain, hates hurting, but in situations like these, pain is crisp and sharp and reminds him he does exist as a part of this universe. he blinks, at lambda, head whipping up to stare at her, and he just looks... like a wreck, really, startled and shaken and like a baby animal instead of a person.
just stunned? stunned enough that his thoughts very temporarily silence while he holds his hand like a dumbass. ]
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[ it's almost callous, the way she's saying it, but if his shocks aren't doing anything for him where they have before, what point is there other than to keep him lost?
she knows how much despair can drown a person, but he's still got the weekend to get through. ]
You will see him. You might hate how or why, but you'll see him soon.