[ he pulls back, and she locks her eyes on his, searching for what he wants. because she doesn't want to believe this is it.
this isn't what she wants. it's not what she wants at all. she wants to have him. she wants to be with him. she wants to be by his side. she wants him to be happy. she wants to be able to make him happy.
she'd let him go, if only she knew he'd be happier that way, but everything he says or does makes her believe he's only running straight for misery, ands she hates it. she doesn't know how to say it succinctly, so she chooses to do something else instead.
her hand slides down his arm to grab his hand, and she pulls him into the nearest hotel room, closing the door behind them. her thoughts are clear:
[Once it's clear what Lambda wants -- when she pulls him along all the way back to the hotel, when she closes the door behind them, when she turns to him with thinks her very certain thoughts -- Rang looks from the bed to her.
He'd looked very sure before when he was holding her hand and telling her everything he wanted, but not anymore. He feels out of place. He's no stranger to intimacy when it serves another purpose, sweet-talking and seduction and getting a human to lower their guard down long enough for him to ruin their life. But he's never let them lay their hands on him, and vice versa. Easier to grip them by the chin and make them look into his eyes -- make them believe it happened without lifting a finger.
Intimacy is an illusion. A shield. Just a way to manipulate someone.
He's not used to the idea of it being real, with someone who knows what he is, and wants him anyway.]
[ he isn't going to find out because she isn't going to say it, but neither has she. she's someone who's kept to herself more often than not and kept people at a distance. she makes it hard for people to get close. she may be a being created from the emotion of pleasure, but it's difficult for her to feel her own.
there haven't been many she's wanted to be intimate with in this way, not when her sadism can be satiated in other ways.
there's a reason some people view her as brutal and callous monster. ]
I don't mind. You won't disappoint me.
[ i just want you to feel something. i want to make you feel more. she wants to give him what she can.
she leads him to the bed. ]
I'm afraid I don't know how to be gentle.
[ unfortunately, she knows what she's like when she becomes excited, but she cares for him too much not to give him a warning. ]
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this isn't what she wants. it's not what she wants at all. she wants to have him. she wants to be with him. she wants to be by his side. she wants him to be happy. she wants to be able to make him happy.
she'd let him go, if only she knew he'd be happier that way, but everything he says or does makes her believe he's only running straight for misery, ands she hates it. she doesn't know how to say it succinctly, so she chooses to do something else instead.
her hand slides down his arm to grab his hand, and she pulls him into the nearest hotel room, closing the door behind them. her thoughts are clear:
what i want is you. ]
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He'd looked very sure before when he was holding her hand and telling her everything he wanted, but not anymore. He feels out of place. He's no stranger to intimacy when it serves another purpose, sweet-talking and seduction and getting a human to lower their guard down long enough for him to ruin their life. But he's never let them lay their hands on him, and vice versa. Easier to grip them by the chin and make them look into his eyes -- make them believe it happened without lifting a finger.
Intimacy is an illusion. A shield. Just a way to manipulate someone.
He's not used to the idea of it being real, with someone who knows what he is, and wants him anyway.]
...I've never done this before.
[You might be disappointed.]
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there haven't been many she's wanted to be intimate with in this way, not when her sadism can be satiated in other ways.
there's a reason some people view her as brutal and callous monster. ]
I don't mind. You won't disappoint me.
[ i just want you to feel something. i want to make you feel more. she wants to give him what she can.
she leads him to the bed. ]
I'm afraid I don't know how to be gentle.
[ unfortunately, she knows what she's like when she becomes excited, but she cares for him too much not to give him a warning. ]