[ SORRY I DIDN'T MEAN TO SPOIL I THOUGHT YOU ALREADY KNEW ignore that..... pretend i didn't say that....
she tilts her head. ]
You aren't the type who'd agree to be a team with just anyone. [ he's so troublesome. ] And the swords are accepting enough that they'd get under your guard.
[ that's her assumption of the dynamic, at least. she doesn't say anything about how d loves animals because that's like saying grass is green. ]
The immediate worry would have been Matsui, which is reasonable. [ she can acknowledge that objectively, but emotionally, she seethes, and it's audible how much sharper she is. ] If I ever find out who cursed him, they're dead to me.
You were also cursed too much outside of that trial.
[LSMDFS SWEET ARA IT'S OKAY!!! im shook...... i have to check out monika's canon....
lambda's always picked up more than the others, that's always been rang's impression of her. as annoying as that had been before, it's comforting now. like how he knows, that of all people, lambda would understand how violating that curse had been for matsui]
I suspected Nahri after the trial, actually. She accused me of being a hypocrite for not liking curses, since I'm a fox. And that losing his ability to grieve made Matsui happier.
[he's still smiling, but the gaze in his eyes grows equally sharp,]
She backed off towards the end -- maybe because she knew she was giving herself away? It's too bad I died so quickly after.
[ sdfsfjasj anyway that's something monika and lambda have in common. monika and lambda being on the same team was good shit.
yeah, she knows, and it incenses her to hear. she can't keep her usual cool. ]
Grief was the proof of his feelings. Grief was the only thing he could hold onto. Grief is how you know you love. Grief is all he had left of him. [ her words become sharp, poisonous. ] I hope the words she spit out cut her the week I died. [ the week shenhe died. ] I hope she learned all too well.
[ can't believe she's about to be a nahri anti and think shenhe has shit taste because of this, if she doesn't see nahri apologize or acknowledge her wrongness about this sometime. ]
[rang likes seeing this? because it validates his own rage at the time too, it validates the reason he stepped away from nahri and turned away from her, telling her never to speak to him again. (while i screamed oocly bc i love nahri)
more importantly, it reminds him of that night again. of matsui's emotions, a turbulent wave that could have drowned him if he let it. he'd been ready to, at the time.]
She might have, or maybe not. I didn't get the impression that she thought about people beyond herself and her team.
[uncharitable, considering rang is the exact same way. but he's not interested in being fair. his gaze darkens at the mention of nahri's human side, and he looks away.]
...She was fine with ignoring mine, when she said I was a fox. [again, not really her fault? since rang likes being a trickster?
but it had cut into him badly, that he'd shared that about himself only for it to be used against him, and the fact that it did makes it even worse.] But we'll see. If we get to that side or she comes over to this one... what exactly she'll say to Matsui, if it's her.
[ they validate each other's anger and anti behavior too much. i, too, love nahri and cry inside about how much this is going to make lambda dislike her.
she does think this is true of him, too, but it's not like she doesn't understand. most people only care about those close to them. she won't call him out for it today.
she didn't know he was half-human before today, so there's a slight eye-widening of surprise before she narrows them. when lambda develops biases, they are strong. ]
She better be the person Shenhe thinks she is. [ that's all she has to say, but she reaches for his hand. ] So many of them jumped on you without thinking more than two seconds. [ Rang's behavior does not help, but she does not think people thought hard about what he's like. ] It'd be easier to figure out if we knew everyone's team psychs.
[ she can say this because it's dated before rang asked for them. ]
[LOOKS AT NAHRI'S TEXT TO LAMBDA MAYBE IT CAN STILL BE SAVED
Rang looks surprised when Lambda reaches for his hand, because a part of him is always ready for others to retreat when they figure out this part of him. ...he promised after that night never to tell anyone else, and yet.
he turns his hand palm up, fingers curling around her hand]
I'm going to ask the next time we're all together. I can tell you ours now, unless you know already.
[ WE'LL SEE. SHE NEEDS TO TEXT BACK FOR ANOTHER RESPONSE.
it feels nice to see someone grab hold onto her hand. it's something she cherishes even if she can only barely feel it. she's held someone's hand here more than anywhere else, and she doesn't know how to cope with it. ]
I have a guess. It's not as if it hasn't been apparent that there aren't any more rules with your team gone.
[ she is so confident about it. she would have been so sadistic with rules and made everyone lose their money. ]
I would have taken that over what my team got. [ a beat. ] You wouldn't have wanted it, but it would have served your team the week Buzen died well. My team found out it was Libby for sure a half hour before trial ended.
[ that's why she and monika pushed for it being poison and and libby. ]
[THAT TRIAL.... the memory of it still sits on him like a weight. even after he'd seen the wound on libby, he hadn't felt the rush of relief most people would get at finding the culprit, or even the vicious satisfaction that she'd get her dues.
she hadn't, in the end. she'd gotten a send-off that rang still thinks she didn't deserve.]
It must've been funny to see Fei Du going on and on then.
Back then, I didn't know if he was an accomplice or not, so I thought he could have been guilty, too.
[ so while she was sure it was sweet theory, she didn't know how much of the team it included, and back then, she didn't think it was so bad. it's horrible how funny hindsight is.
even now, she wars with how much she wants to like or tolerate fei du because of how much he still supports libby. how much fei du doesn't know how libby's reasoning also meant she didn't believe someone like lambda had as much right to exist and how much that continued support digs like a micro aggression. ]
We can test the truth of something someone says once a week. It has to be a factual statement, and we all have to agree. I'm positive Monika and Mizuki used it on Nahida.
[ but she still didn't vote for go to sleep because i didn't want to vote for britt. ]
rang is hilariously the same way with fei du, though he wonders if it's worth the effort to tell fei du why it was such a terrible reason, when fei du is so entrenched in the belief that he's the real monster compared to libby. rang doesn't think he's a monster. just a regular human, with all their usual failings. focused only on themselves.]
You're right that I wouldn't have wanted it. But not because it's not useful.
[only because rang has never had the same determination to solve cases... hikari's at least. the other two he'd seen were different,]
These psychs are really varied, huh. Sweet Theory's is shapeshifting. Libby made herself look like Fukuzawa to trick Buzen, but he saw through her.
[ she knows it's not something that would interest rang. she didn't care too much for solving trials either outside of knowing voting correctly gave you more points. ]
She didn't think it through, how to act like the person she imitated. Typical.
[ that could be such a powerful framing tool. the mods truly tried to balance these team psychs out.
she doesn't know about it yet in this thread but imagine go to sleep's team psych with rang or lambda? blood would be everywhere. ]
It's insulting. I wouldn't have picked someone who carries a sword with him -- or I'd at least stolen his sword first before I tried to pretend to be him.
[rang shapeshifts almost every other episode so it's wildly funny that he didn't get this psych]
Buzen wouldn't have hesitated no matter who she picked, so I would have chosen someone who doesn't match my team's foot or hand sizes.
She could have bought a few seconds more, if she picked someone without a weapon.
[ in terms of fooling buzen, maybe more than a few, not in terms of buzen not wanting to fight.
a sword is a sword even if matsui will only fight people he deems enemies. ]
It's a shame it was wasted like that.
[ lambda has the ability to take on any form she wants on account of being water, but she chooses the one she has for one reason or another (mumbles in fate/). ]
[ that's such a deep cut. why do these two hate humans so much for? did you know lambda is supposed to hate humans less than she usually does from where i apped her? that lasted two weeks. ]
I do, but only at a distance. I've had to pretend to be one of them to protect myself and then Yuri... But I don't spend time with them, not like here.
[he just keeps to himself mostly when he's not causing problems. having to be in close quarters with them after years of just treating them as randos.... it was very eye-opening]
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I made sure not to get too close, so she couldn't feel my emotions. And it probably helped that she didn't think I was close to Matsui or Buzen.
[since that was the impression rang gave off in public... and he'd kept his emotions so tightly reined during trial too, ]
A lot of people didn't think so, actually. Maybe that's why no one cursed me not to feel murderous, though they did for Matsui.
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she tilts her head. ]
You aren't the type who'd agree to be a team with just anyone. [ he's so troublesome. ] And the swords are accepting enough that they'd get under your guard.
[ that's her assumption of the dynamic, at least. she doesn't say anything about how d loves animals because that's like saying grass is green. ]
The immediate worry would have been Matsui, which is reasonable. [ she can acknowledge that objectively, but emotionally, she seethes, and it's audible how much sharper she is. ] If I ever find out who cursed him, they're dead to me.
You were also cursed too much outside of that trial.
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lambda's always picked up more than the others, that's always been rang's impression of her. as annoying as that had been before, it's comforting now. like how he knows, that of all people, lambda would understand how violating that curse had been for matsui]
I suspected Nahri after the trial, actually. She accused me of being a hypocrite for not liking curses, since I'm a fox. And that losing his ability to grieve made Matsui happier.
[he's still smiling, but the gaze in his eyes grows equally sharp,]
She backed off towards the end -- maybe because she knew she was giving herself away? It's too bad I died so quickly after.
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yeah, she knows, and it incenses her to hear. she can't keep her usual cool. ]
Grief was the proof of his feelings. Grief was the only thing he could hold onto. Grief is how you know you love. Grief is all he had left of him. [ her words become sharp, poisonous. ] I hope the words she spit out cut her the week I died. [ the week shenhe died. ] I hope she learned all too well.
[ can't believe she's about to be a nahri anti and think shenhe has shit taste because of this, if she doesn't see nahri apologize or acknowledge her wrongness about this sometime. ]
She clings too much to her human side.
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more importantly, it reminds him of that night again. of matsui's emotions, a turbulent wave that could have drowned him if he let it. he'd been ready to, at the time.]
She might have, or maybe not. I didn't get the impression that she thought about people beyond herself and her team.
[uncharitable, considering rang is the exact same way. but he's not interested in being fair. his gaze darkens at the mention of nahri's human side, and he looks away.]
...She was fine with ignoring mine, when she said I was a fox. [again, not really her fault? since rang likes being a trickster?
but it had cut into him badly, that he'd shared that about himself only for it to be used against him, and the fact that it did makes it even worse.] But we'll see. If we get to that side or she comes over to this one... what exactly she'll say to Matsui, if it's her.
[he thinks it's her so bad]
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she does think this is true of him, too, but it's not like she doesn't understand. most people only care about those close to them. she won't call him out for it today.
she didn't know he was half-human before today, so there's a slight eye-widening of surprise before she narrows them. when lambda develops biases, they are strong. ]
She better be the person Shenhe thinks she is. [ that's all she has to say, but she reaches for his hand. ] So many of them jumped on you without thinking more than two seconds. [ Rang's behavior does not help, but she does not think people thought hard about what he's like. ] It'd be easier to figure out if we knew everyone's team psychs.
[ she can say this because it's dated before rang asked for them. ]
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Rang looks surprised when Lambda reaches for his hand, because a part of him is always ready for others to retreat when they figure out this part of him. ...he promised after that night never to tell anyone else, and yet.
he turns his hand palm up, fingers curling around her hand]
I'm going to ask the next time we're all together. I can tell you ours now, unless you know already.
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it feels nice to see someone grab hold onto her hand. it's something she cherishes even if she can only barely feel it. she's held someone's hand here more than anywhere else, and she doesn't know how to cope with it. ]
I have a guess. It's not as if it hasn't been apparent that there aren't any more rules with your team gone.
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It was wasted on us. [what did they fcking do with it besides shitpost HUH] I think it would have more been interesting if you had it though.
[he just wants the kind of chaos lambda would have caused]
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[ she is so confident about it. she would have been so sadistic with rules and made everyone lose their money. ]
I would have taken that over what my team got. [ a beat. ] You wouldn't have wanted it, but it would have served your team the week Buzen died well. My team found out it was Libby for sure a half hour before trial ended.
[ that's why she and monika pushed for it being poison and and libby. ]
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she hadn't, in the end. she'd gotten a send-off that rang still thinks she didn't deserve.]
It must've been funny to see Fei Du going on and on then.
[the dramatics.... he tilts his head]
How did it work exactly?
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[ so while she was sure it was sweet theory, she didn't know how much of the team it included, and back then, she didn't think it was so bad. it's horrible how funny hindsight is.
even now, she wars with how much she wants to like or tolerate fei du because of how much he still supports libby. how much fei du doesn't know how libby's reasoning also meant she didn't believe someone like lambda had as much right to exist and how much that continued support digs like a micro aggression. ]
We can test the truth of something someone says once a week. It has to be a factual statement, and we all have to agree. I'm positive Monika and Mizuki used it on Nahida.
[ but she still didn't vote for go to sleep because i didn't want to vote for britt. ]
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rang is hilariously the same way with fei du, though he wonders if it's worth the effort to tell fei du why it was such a terrible reason, when fei du is so entrenched in the belief that he's the real monster compared to libby. rang doesn't think he's a monster. just a regular human, with all their usual failings. focused only on themselves.]
You're right that I wouldn't have wanted it. But not because it's not useful.
[only because rang has never had the same determination to solve cases... hikari's at least. the other two he'd seen were different,]
These psychs are really varied, huh. Sweet Theory's is shapeshifting. Libby made herself look like Fukuzawa to trick Buzen, but he saw through her.
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She didn't think it through, how to act like the person she imitated. Typical.
[ that could be such a powerful framing tool. the mods truly tried to balance these team psychs out.
she doesn't know about it yet in this thread but imagine go to sleep's team psych with rang or lambda? blood would be everywhere. ]
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rang makes a face, clearly disgruntled.]
It's insulting. I wouldn't have picked someone who carries a sword with him -- or I'd at least stolen his sword first before I tried to pretend to be him.
[rang shapeshifts almost every other episode so it's wildly funny that he didn't get this psych]
Buzen wouldn't have hesitated no matter who she picked, so I would have chosen someone who doesn't match my team's foot or hand sizes.
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[ in terms of fooling buzen, maybe more than a few, not in terms of buzen not wanting to fight.
a sword is a sword even if matsui will only fight people he deems enemies. ]
It's a shame it was wasted like that.
[ lambda has the ability to take on any form she wants on account of being water, but she chooses the one she has for one reason or another (mumbles in fate/). ]
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[let's not be that dramatic there,]
We're brought down to human standards, we don't get the powers we'd know how to use better, our profiles make it obvious that we aren't human...
[rang acting like being murderous didn't also set him back]
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[ it's called cheating. just learn to cheat. ]
Even without your age listed, you make it clear whenever you open your mouth.
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[he thinks humans are the best at deception, in the end]
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You don't believe in playing a long game?
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I do, but only at a distance. I've had to pretend to be one of them to protect myself and then Yuri... But I don't spend time with them, not like here.
[he just keeps to himself mostly when he's not causing problems. having to be in close quarters with them after years of just treating them as randos.... it was very eye-opening]
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[ she still thanks half the people here are randos at best. ]
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Not really.
[he's fond of some, but the few he dislikes stand out to him too.]
I don't like them any more than I did before. But I don't hate them more either.