You invite accusations with your behavior, but if they took a moment to look at you longer, it's not difficult to tell it wasn't you. You wouldn't have invited that much suffering to yourself. [ a beat. ] At least not that kind.
[ ... ]
There's no point to these trials other than to suspect others. I don't care so much that people kill, only that we have to be locked in for hours.
[it's not that rang resents them for it -- or maybe he does, annoyed that they can accuse him now, when he'd been doing his best all trial to act out. or maybe he's hurt too, that the people who defended him have already written him off. and then he's reminded that there's no way they wouldn't have, with the way he's behaving. a self-fulfilling prophecy.
so it's a surprise that lambda says 'no, actually'. it's a little uncomfortable, and it makes rang confused on what to do or say.
he looks over at lambda, quiet.]
Why? Have you grown attached to them? {instead of mocking, the question is curious]
Attachment is a stretch, and you don't have to write yourself off in that equation.
[ she won't hide that she doesn't care for humans, and that has a lot to do with it. she isn't sweet to rang or anything, but she doesn't mind him nearly as much as all the other things.
she understands on some levels why he acts out the way he does, but she doesn't understand why he keeps being so self-destructive. it's hard out here being the kind of being she is when she both has so much and so little capacity to understand. ]
I prefer you and your team over enough of the others.
[...it's a simple answer, and one Rang himself would say too. has said, in terms of Lambda. that he prefers her over the others, even for all her needling.]
...I think you're the first person here to include me in that.
[he's not blind or deaf, he's fielded enough questions asking why you? why are you with the others? to know that he's not a good fit. rang blinks at her, thinks back at Guifei's words, his own impression of Lambda,]
And for some reason, I think the same. That you're not so bad, despite the terrible deal you bound me to.
You're to blame for your own problems, but I don't see things like humans do.
[ there are ways where she is very much like a human, and there are moments that show how she's never been human for a second.
she flashes a small grin. ]
As I've said, who's fault is that? You didn't want to pay even if you had the money for it. You opened yourself to it.
[ she doesn't hide how terrible she is to anyone, but it's easier to be terrible in front of someone like rang. it's difficult to say if that's a good thing or not. ]
They'll have to think twice about being so quick to accuse you after tomorrow.
[ unless it's both d and rang up for execution then rip. ]
[he makes a FACE at her point because YEAH!! YEAH!!! HE KNOWS THAT SHE'S RIGHT, he really just stuck a giant furry paw in this trap and watched it close around him like :3? until it was too late....
though as traps go, rang guesses it could be worse. they have been, in the past.]
I'm not so sure. I think they'd just do it out of spite, considering how I'm letting them think however they want.
[THE AMOUNT OF PPL WHO WILL BE MAD AT RANG TOMORROW.... DAMN]
[ he really is out here telling her things. she thinks about this week and what it's been like for him, and she can see why. she can even maybe understand it a little. ]
I don't know how much either of you would have preferred that. It's fine this way.
[look... yeah, sometimes you are fraught with having to erase someone you actually like, not that he'd ever acknowledge the emotion out loud,]
I suppose. It's what I prefer, at least.
[even if technically haru or livio or ylfa all have a greater claim. but no one knows that it's d, and d hadn't decided to give them that option, and rang would have kicked up a fuss if it turned out to be anyone besides him,]
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You invite accusations with your behavior, but if they took a moment to look at you longer, it's not difficult to tell it wasn't you. You wouldn't have invited that much suffering to yourself. [ a beat. ] At least not that kind.
[ ... ]
There's no point to these trials other than to suspect others. I don't care so much that people kill, only that we have to be locked in for hours.
[ another beat. ]
I didn't want it to be your team.
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so it's a surprise that lambda says 'no, actually'. it's a little uncomfortable, and it makes rang confused on what to do or say.
he looks over at lambda, quiet.]
Why? Have you grown attached to them? {instead of mocking, the question is curious]
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[ she won't hide that she doesn't care for humans, and that has a lot to do with it. she isn't sweet to rang or anything, but she doesn't mind him nearly as much as all the other things.
she understands on some levels why he acts out the way he does, but she doesn't understand why he keeps being so self-destructive. it's hard out here being the kind of being she is when she both has so much and so little capacity to understand. ]
I prefer you and your team over enough of the others.
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...I think you're the first person here to include me in that.
[he's not blind or deaf, he's fielded enough questions asking why you? why are you with the others? to know that he's not a good fit. rang blinks at her, thinks back at Guifei's words, his own impression of Lambda,]
And for some reason, I think the same. That you're not so bad, despite the terrible deal you bound me to.
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[ there are ways where she is very much like a human, and there are moments that show how she's never been human for a second.
she flashes a small grin. ]
As I've said, who's fault is that? You didn't want to pay even if you had the money for it. You opened yourself to it.
[ she doesn't hide how terrible she is to anyone, but it's easier to be terrible in front of someone like rang. it's difficult to say if that's a good thing or not. ]
They'll have to think twice about being so quick to accuse you after tomorrow.
[ unless it's both d and rang up for execution then rip. ]
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[he makes a FACE at her point because YEAH!! YEAH!!! HE KNOWS THAT SHE'S RIGHT, he really just stuck a giant furry paw in this trap and watched it close around him like :3? until it was too late....
though as traps go, rang guesses it could be worse. they have been, in the past.]
I'm not so sure. I think they'd just do it out of spite, considering how I'm letting them think however they want.
[THE AMOUNT OF PPL WHO WILL BE MAD AT RANG TOMORROW.... DAMN]
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anyway, she's not surprised he's stirring the pot in the way he knows best. ]
You'll have yourself to blame again, but if they do it out of spite, they can't call themselves better than you.
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They'll probably think that anyway.
[though they'll always think they're better than him,]
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[ not that she thinks he isn't or wouldn't be a murderer. ]
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...I told D I wanted to be the one to erase him, and he said yes.
Maybe if he was caught properly during trial, then he'd have more options to choose from.
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I don't know how much either of you would have preferred that. It's fine this way.
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I suppose. It's what I prefer, at least.
[even if technically haru or livio or ylfa all have a greater claim. but no one knows that it's d, and d hadn't decided to give them that option, and rang would have kicked up a fuss if it turned out to be anyone besides him,]
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Then it doesn't matter if D accepted it. He didn't reveal himself for other people to choose to volunteer.
[ it wouldn't have been pretty for anyone and no one needs to see rang throw another type of tantrum.
but enough people think it's rang as it is. ]