alex catchall

[diluvian]

the best satan to ever exist

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[diluvian]

It doesn't.

[ she'll agree with that much. ]

I don't know how much I wanted that to happen.

[camena]

I keep thinking it should be someone else, but there's no one else I want it to be instead.

[diluvian]

[ there are people lambda wouldn't mind it being instead, but she's cold that way. ]

There were only so many people it could've been, and so many of the options it could have been....

[ she sighs. ]

I'd prefer a different outcome.

[camena]

Like... What would you have preferred...?

[diluvian]

Someone I haven't talked to much.

[ it's not a nice answer, but it's an honest one. ]

[camena]

[ she sighs

and quietly: ]

Yeah. Me too, I guess.

[diluvian]

I won't hide that about myself.

[ she's selfish that way. ]

[camena]

It's... brave, in a way? I'd hate it if you were from my world. But you're not, so... I think—I think the rules have to be different.

[diluvian]

[ her smile is small and humorless. ]

You don't have to like it or me. It's fine if you don't.

[camena]

Too bad. I want to.

[diluvian]

[ ... ]

Why?

[camena]

[ she thinks for a long moment, genuinely trying to articulate something kind of complicated

and then just settles on ]

I just want to?

[diluvian]

[ there's a long beat, and then she says something under her breath that sounds like, "you're just like—" before she cuts it off with a sigh, but it's a sigh that sounds like she's giving up. ]

Fine. Do whatever you like, but don't regret it when I won't change who or how I am.

[camena]

Yeah, no. It's not about changing who you are.

Just... understanding each other better. I think.

[diluvian]

[ ... ]

That's easier said than done.

[camena]

I like a challenge.

[diluvian]

[ there's a beat before she takes a few steps closer to alex. ]

Is that so?

[camena]

[ HLEP?? ]

Yeah, like, I'm pretty good at competitions. Table tennis. You know.

[diluvian]

[ she closes the distance a little more. ]

Learning about me and understanding me is a different kind of challenge, Alex. Are you sure you're ready for it?

[camena]

[ if she ignores this it's not happening?? this is fine. this is normal???? ]

Well. I can learn about you first and then work on the understanding part. One after the other.

[diluvian]

[ alex can try her best to ignore it. she can do her best. ]

Well, you and anyone else who stayed to watch me kill Yang Guifei saw a glimpse of what I'm like. Did you understand any of that?

[camena]

No.

But, like, you two are from a completely different world than me. With mages and magic and summoning and—things that can end the world apparently.

[diluvian]

Yang Guifei used to be very, very human with no magic in sight. I'm the outlier.

[camena]

... So that means it could be extra hard to understand, I guess?

[diluvian]

Good luck. You'll need it.