Literally. I know gods and goddesses. I won't dismiss what I know it exists.
[ she can dismiss christianity, though. since there isn't anything solid confirming the exist of christianity's god in her world, and the holy church is so annoying. ]
[ He's silent for a moment, motionless except for the end of his cigarette that glows slightly brighter red, and the slight increase in wafting smoke that comes after with his sigh. ]
I thought I was supposed to, but it turned out being told to do it made me wanna do it less.
[ He doesn't really feel like denying or trying to cover that up. It's not like it's something that can be weaponised against him, with them in this weird Underground. ]
[ Ara's girls and their contentious relationship with their families mostly sisters...
He's silent about it, seeming to mull over it. It's hard to really say yes or no to that, but for the sake of ease and simplicity -- ]
Sure. Yeah. Maybe? I don't really think of them as really all that connected to my faith. [ Because it's not something he believes in, but it is what keeps him going ] I'd say they're worth more, actually.
...Yeah. For what it's worth, they've all probably grown up.
[ Even for as much of an iron cage as he tends to be, this is the softest he'll probably look in front of Lambda for the time being -- a slight rounding to his hardest features, the smallest hint of reminiscence with a not-light dose of melancholy.
He doesn't think they'd recognise him anyway. ]
I don't have superhuman memory or anything, but I'd like to think it's alright.
People just change how they look when they grow up, that's all.
[ He didn't mean anything deep by it, is what he means. Even if he had pictures of them, they might look different now. That's not a bad thing, just a statement. ]
It's never going to be enough, but I can at least try.
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[ Even he doesn't do that, though he doesn't sound biting or anything in particular. ]
Never said you couldn't, just didn't really take you for being really all that interested. Would've assumed you'd scoff at it all, if anything else.
[ The ostentatious for the unconfirmable, et cetera. ]
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[ lmao
but she'll add: ]
Literally. I know gods and goddesses. I won't dismiss what I know it exists.
[ she can dismiss christianity, though. since there isn't anything solid confirming the exist of christianity's god in her world, and the holy church is so annoying. ]
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He's silent at that, looking towards the altar near the front. ]
I wouldn't know anything about that. I'm just a mortal and all.
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Mortals can still have an opinion and form a belief. Isn't that how religion happens?
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That shit's way out of my reach.
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What're we meant to do if the people we look up and pray to can't even lift a finger to help?
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Are they people you should believe in?
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I thought I was supposed to, but it turned out being told to do it made me wanna do it less.
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Sometimes, that's better for you. Other times, it's worse. It depends what your faith means to you.
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They took the family portion away, and that's when I stopped, I guess.
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Yeah, of course.
[ He doesn't really feel like denying or trying to cover that up. It's not like it's something that can be weaponised against him, with them in this weird Underground. ]
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she nods her head minutely. she gets it. sort of. her fondness for her own family is a slow-growing thing and only to some of her sisters. ]
Is saying your family is your faith a better way to put it?
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He's silent about it, seeming to mull over it. It's hard to really say yes or no to that, but for the sake of ease and simplicity -- ]
Sure. Yeah. Maybe? I don't really think of them as really all that connected to my faith. [ Because it's not something he believes in, but it is what keeps him going ] I'd say they're worth more, actually.
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what is faith but what keeps you going, though? ]
You should have a wallet where you flip it open and photos fall out of your family.
[ she can't actually imagine wolfwood doing this. ]
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Also, I don't think they'd fit. People come and go, you know.
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[ but she's not insisting or anything for it. ]
You can rely on your memory.
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[ Even for as much of an iron cage as he tends to be, this is the softest he'll probably look in front of Lambda for the time being -- a slight rounding to his hardest features, the smallest hint of reminiscence with a not-light dose of melancholy.
He doesn't think they'd recognise him anyway. ]
I don't have superhuman memory or anything, but I'd like to think it's alright.
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[ before dying.
she can respect a man devoted to his family but only if he's absent for good reasons. she knows no reasons. ]
Does their being grown up change anything? [ is the love supposed to fade with age? do pictures of them become less valid? she doesn't understand. ]
If you think it's enough, it can be enough.
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[ He didn't mean anything deep by it, is what he means. Even if he had pictures of them, they might look different now. That's not a bad thing, just a statement. ]
It's never going to be enough, but I can at least try.