alex catchall

[diluvian]

the best satan to ever exist

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[diluvian]

Sure. It's harder on some more than others.

[ unfortunate how killing doesn't make lambda feel guilty or horrible at all. ]

I did notice you kind of looked away from Froggystyle during trials sometimes. Unless you mean something else...?

[camena]

Guess I can't really say, "I should have handled it for them," because I didn't, so. Who knows if I could. It's just frustrating.

I might have done that anyway. I just liked them?

[diluvian]

What ifs are fine if you can learn from them, but if they start to keep you from moving....

[ well, she thinks alex is smart enough to get what she means. ]

You know one of them killed me, right?

[camena]

... Yeah. I didn't find that out 'til way later. 'Til I already liked them all too much.

But sorry. Not sure it helps, but. You know.

[diluvian]

[ she waves a hand. it's whatever. ]

I don't mind. I've stopped minding for a while.

[camena]

Well. I'm still sorry. And I'm sorry for having a like—for all of this. Right now.

[ truly just burdening someone with your slow-motion mental breakdown after not seeing them for weeks straight. she is aware that sucks. ]

[diluvian]

If I found you or what you're saying annoying, I would walk away.

[ it's a little surprising to lambda that alex is willing or wanting to say this much to her, but she doesn't mind. ]

Or make you lose your focus.

[camena]

Sounds right.

[ and alex does finally laugh a little under her breath. ]

That wouldn't be hard. I'm already having trouble standing still for this—but walking and concentrating and talking and making someone follow me when we're in different places... It's all bad.

[diluvian]

If you don't want to walk, talk, and focus but want to go somewhere else, just drop the focus and refocus when you get there.

Don't make it too difficult on yourself.

[ even if there's no guarantee the same person will be there when you focus again. ]

[camena]

No, I wanna stay and talk. It's fine, it's fine.

What, uh... have you been up to? On that side?

[diluvian]

Hm? Are you saying our messages and what half of the others showed up wearing weren't clear enough?

[ she's teasing. ]

[camena]

They really weren't. Even when the messages cleared up it was still a little hard to follow.

[diluvian]

A good number of them don maid and butler uniforms for the fun of it. I don't know how that became a trend. It was already like that when I showed up, and they keep roping people into it.

[ this doesn't exactly answer alex's question, but it's still an answer.

lambda isn't in a maid uniform. ]

[camena]

I guess it's... good to know everyone is having fun, somehow. Like, if you have the time to relax and can get your mind off of stuff...

[diluvian]

Your side is suffering more visibly than ours.

[ unfortunately, she doesn't care to mince her words about it. ]

[camena]

We've got more to lose, so I guess that makes sense.

[diluvian]

I do think you care more than I do, in general.

[camena]

We probably just express it different.

[diluvian]

I wouldn't go that far. There really isn't too much or too many I care about.

[camena]

Well... What do you care about?

[diluvian]

Dolls. Ballet. Figure skating.

[ that's about it. ]

[camena]

But you probably care about those a lot.

[diluvian]

I do. I love them.

[ she can admit that freely. ]

[camena]

So it's just a matter of distribution.

[diluvian]

I offer a rare and limited supply, too priceless for most to afford.