netzach catchall

[diluvian]

i know very little about project moon

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[abstractart]

S'my psych. Nobody drugged me.

[diluvian]

[ .... ]

You did it to yourself. Is this how you're coping?

[ sorry she isn't nicer about this. ]

[abstractart]

Sure is.

[holds up 2 fingers in a v. ✌️ he's doing fine.]

[diluvian]

[ boy, ]

Do you want me to knock you unconscious and make it easier?

[ is that really easier ]

[abstractart]

I still wanted to talk to a couple of people, so I'd like it if you didn't...

[why is being high an issue]

[diluvian]

[ it affects clarity of the mind? which she gets is why he wants to be high, but there are better ways. ]

You poisoned yourself, so how much good can you do?

[abstractart]

Mmm... Well, I know I can't do much good sober, either, so it probably doesn't matter.

[which he just says in the matter-of-fact manner of someone who has heard that question pretty regularly.]

[diluvian]

Why is that?

[ she legitimately doesn't understand. it is moments like this that shows how inhuman she is. ]

[abstractart]

I mean, you saw today.

[he isn't even familiar with trials, of course he's not helpful for them.]

It's always been that way.

[diluvian]

Are you against the concept of improvement? I know you aren't against change.

[ even if he is open about slacking about his job. ]

[abstractart]

Not against it, I guess. I just didn't want to be any better at what I had to do.

[diluvian]

That's an insufferable mentality.

[ this is her pretty way of saying she thinks he's stupid dumbass. ]

[abstractart]

Tiphereth would've liked you.

[god she'd be so appreciative of someone else telling netzach he's stupid]

I'm okay with that, though. I only do it because I have to... I'd rather be good at other things.

[diluvian]

Which are?

[ she is horrible and questioning what he's even good at and wants to be good at, completely wiping away how enthused he was during the mini-event. ]

[abstractart]

Art, mostly.

[sometimes you only find something you really like in the middle of your awful job.]

But I'd like to be better at-- making things better, I guess.

[diluvian]

[ you know what, that's valid.

lambda is someone who appreciates the arts, but she also appreciates work ethic. ]

You realize, that takes trying to improve in general, right? If you make yourself better, it'll be easier to make things better.

[abstractart]

...I don't know if I know how to do that, exactly.

[diluvian]

[ he has not earned enough bond points for lambda to workshop this for him, so unfortunately, she just says: ]

You can start by being sober.

[abstractart]

I am, most of the time.

[he is taking a break...]

[diluvian]

Yes, and what do you do when you are sober?

[abstractart]

Here? Talk to people, mostly.

[diluvian]

In general. Anywhere.

[abstractart]

Read a little, maybe. Paint. Organize the books if I feel like it.

This is the first time I've been outside of work in... a while, so I don't... really have anything I do outside of it.

[diluvian]

Find something for yourself.