netzach catchall

[diluvian]

i know very little about project moon

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[abstractart]

I don't know. I might, if I knew she thought about choosing Buzen... I didn't want it to end the way it did, but I knew what the end result was going to be, anyway.

[he'd have preferred matsui to get to take matters into his own hands, but he knew that, in all likelihood, he wouldn't carry on. that part, he was prepared for. and if it had ever been between his own life and three others, a soul he's not sure deserves the chance or two people he felt like he understood and cared about--

...]

Don't get me wrong. I wouldn't just let it happen-- I want to live, if I get to have anything left of a life of my own. I have something to see through before then. But I might have accepted fighting her in his place.

[diluvian]

[ she shakes her head. ]

Without the what ifs, without knowing, the way Buzen must have been approached. Don't just accept it.

[ how libby understood buzen and netzach could have been that difference or that reason why she picked one over the other, but lambda continues not to know how libby reasoned anything. after all, netzach is known to laze around under the influence, and buzen is a sword. lambda truly doesn't understand. ]

Continue to hold onto that will to live. We should be able to have a life of our own, outside of our duties. [ her voice becomes just a little softer. ] Don't make me see another spirit or nonhuman leave for a boorish reason, Netzach.

[abstractart]

[there's an unmistakable wash of surprise at those words, as he gives her a briefly confused look-- but it fades, easing into something a little more warm.]

... I'm gonna try not to. The world turned out to be bigger than I knew, and a lot of it is terrible, but it's... not without its beauty either, you know? I have my job, but I also want to live in it more, not just exist.

I don't want to see you go for that kind of reason, either, but I feel like I should be more worried for anyone who tries it than I should be about you...

[diluvian]

[ oh. those words manage to cut through all her negativity, just a little. there's a small splash of pleasure, followed by amusement. ]

There's a little more optimism in you than expected. [ to see beauty in the world like that. spoken like an artist. ]

Don't worry so much. I expect you'd see me go out because my team is voted for before anything else.

[ sorry, she won't hide that she has no qualms about murder. ]

[abstractart]

I don't know if it's really optimism... but I think there are things worth seeing, anyway.

[a little more warmth on his end, there, managing a small smile at those emotions from her.]

Hopefully that's the only way either one of us is gonna go.

[diluvian]

That's optimistic enough.

[ as somehow who views things with a filter of boredom and logic, it's optimistic enough to her. ]

Oh? Would you choose to take action to advance your team?

[ unless he means being scapegoated. which i would also accept. ]

[abstractart]

...I don't want to. But I've had to do it before.

[a little shake of his head, there.]

If we ever get voted for, though, and it wasn't us-- I already talked about that with Yuzu and Zelda. I don't want it to be either of them.

[diluvian]

Oh, Netzach.

[ she doesn't sound or feel surprised. ]

I won't argue that choice. It's yours and your team's to make.

[abstractart]

[it's one he's already set on, though his teammates will likely have an issue with this after week 3.]

I'd rather do the fighting myself than have to watch them do it. That's all. I've had enough of just watching people die, and not being able to do anything.

[diluvian]

I don't blame you for wanting to have one last shred of agency, but that won't be easy for your teammates either.

[ she assumes yuneyuzu cares about each other. ]

[abstractart]

I know. Yuzu wants to fight, too, and she's probably the best of us at it. But...

[...he can't help it.]